I don’t know why this song has suddenly become important to me.
I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.
This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.
And I will not be afraid
of your scars.
I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.
Can we get a system in place to let others know what our personal relationship status is? Like, in real life. Color-coded buttons or something so I don’t spend every post-interaction with someone who was exceptionally nice to me wondering if they were flirting or just being exceptionally nice. The buttons wouldn’t solve my problem but it would give me some insight on if it would be acceptable to attempt to ask this dude to a movie some time. For example.
Also I’m not the best at throwing signals, seeing as my job requires me to be friendly so a button on me would be great, and probably less desperate looking than my idea for a shirt that simply says “I’m single and not entirely crazy ask me out plz”.